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tion you choose to put, Miss. Pray what is justice which, in taking this course, she it?”
wrought against the innocent. “It's a hard question - hard, I mean, But the future is not given to us to read. for me to ask. In that paper which you And, considering with what little profit both wrote for Mrs. Ferrier, and which you after the past and the present are often perused wards put into my şands, there is mention by us, were it not outrageous in us to as made of — of somebody besides my moth- pire for a knowledge so far too excellent
for us? Eva made up her mind to set out “I know, Miss. You mean your — in for Wales along with her newly found kinshort, you mean Mr. O'Cullamore.”
Mr. Ballow Yes, I do. Can you tell me what has approved, and Mrs. Ballow withdrew her befallen him?"
disapproval. They promised that no effort “ No, Miss March, I cannot. I trust, should be wanting to make further inquiries, though it's a sad sort of thing to say before and to ascertain the truth beyond a doubt. you, that I never shall hear anything more Meantime, their home at Minchley, to which of him. I have never heard of his death, they would return on the Monday, was as and I certainly never heard of bis coming freely open to her as to any daughter of back to England. He is very likely living their own. She might calculate on a hearty in Australia still. At any rate, he will welcome whenever (which was likely to bardly present himself before you or your happen only too quickly) she found her mother, and it can never be your wish that uncle's house unpleasing to her. he should."
sufficient sum of money was put into her No, no, indeed! I should feel that to hands, and she might at any time obtain be a most dreadful thing. I hope and trust any reasonable amount for any needful it is not wrong in me to say so."
purpose. Mr. Dowlas now took his leave, and the No more was said, and the necessary great subject was discussed between Eva preparations for her departure were comand her two faithful friends. Mr. Ballow, menced at once. But there was yet someadhering to his opinion that Mrs. Roberts's thing harder to be done. There was a story was susceptible of a very opposite in- farewell interval with Richard. He came ference, yet acknowledged that many things shortly after Mr. Dowlas had departed. appeared to identify Éva with the infant He besought Eva to ignore and cast aside who so strangely feli, in the very first hours the supposed discovery as the joint invenof her life, into the hands of Mr. Ferrier. tion of his mother's prejudice and Mrs. He therefore inclined to the belief that Roberts's madness. Eva dared not do this. Eva was judging aright when she felt it She felt the proofs to be strong enough to her duty to go with the Dowlas family that outweigh many more improbabilities than day, and he urged his opinion upon Mrs. she actually detected in the story. Richard Ballow.
bitterly called upon her to testify how “ You see this, my dear," he said, " by faithfully he was observing his promise. insisting on some further proof of the Eva had strength to say that she knew he story - by referring, for instance, to Mr. would as religiously keep it always. And Campion himself — Eva might (10 say the so they parted, exchanging the vows, not least) be doing a great injustice, and acting of mutual constancy, but of a mutual surwith what would appear like a sullen hard render.
Now by going to see the person who “ Your mother is very right, Richard," is probably, though not certainly her moth- she said. “I, a poor girl, who must blush er, she can do no injustice to anybody, and for at least one of my parents, — 1 ought may be taking the only right and good never, knowing what my origin would very way which lies open to her.”
likely prove to be — I ought never to have How sensibly, as all will surely acknowl. thought of being yours.". edge, was this decision put! How griev- Eva, I shall never be what I was beously fallacious it was destined to prove! fore I knew you. I will never forgive my Eva, convinced that she could not escape mother until she repents of her treatment from owning herself to be Mrs. Roberts's of you. And I'll know no rest until all daughter, was rather comforted in thinking obstacles to our happiness are removed.” that, by acting accordingly, she could do He went out defiantly hopeful. But in nobody injustice. There came a day, and Eva's own heart the thought was strong that was not very long in coming, when she that the happiness of all her future life was writhed bitterly at the thought of the in- gone out with him.
It made her far more indifferent than she might be expected. So Mrs. Dowlas gave would otherwise bave been to the probable her final decision for making the journey discomforts of her new life.
by water instead of by land. As the time What mattered it whose she was to be, for departure drew near they gathered their if she could not now justly aspire to be his ? packages together, and prepared to walk
When the Dowlases, husband and wife, towards the steamer. arrived at the station that afternoon, they “ Take care, my dear,” said Mr. Dowlas found Eva already awaiting them, under the to his daughter; " you'll bring upon your escort of Mr. Ballow. On her two boxes self a very strong remonstrance from your she had written the name of “Miss Rob- mamma if you lose that shawl.” erts” with her own hands. For such a “ That she will, I promise her! That she name she felt she must now resign herself to will, I promise her!” answered the redbear through life, - alas ! too surely, through faced laily for herself. And then, with a life.
celerity which argued long and varied exThey started on their way, and arrived perience, Rebecca Jane dodged round the at Liverpool that evening. Rebecca Jane table as her mother approacbed her. In all was fetched away from the friends with due time they were on board and sailing whom she had spent the interval occupied down the Mersey into the Irish Sea. by her parents in visiting Leamington. Mrs. Dowlas had treated herself to a She was presented to her cousin Eva, and breakfast, very varied as to quality, and with something at her cousin Eva's hands. very satisfactory as to quantity. A hint When we last beheld her she was about thrown out by her husband as to coming seven years old ; she was now entering her dangers ensuing therefrom bad been by her thirteenth year.
She was really a much most scornfully slighted and despised. The nicer child than, with such a mother, you sea, when they got into it, proved not quite could have expected her to be. To do bare so placid as bad been expected. Therefore justice to Mrs. Dowlas, she was much less it is no such great wonder if, before the savage to her children than to her much- firing of the gun which announced their enduring husband. She had her own sys- passing off Great Orme's Head, Mrs. Dowtem of education. It was briefly compre- las was about the most suffering of all those hended in giving her children their own suffering people whom that steamer conwayʻaltogether until they were six or seven ; tained. Rebecca Jane was about as much in assuming a sort of spasmodic severity to be pitied as her mamma; much more so, towards them as soon as that age was at- indeed, if the greater pity be due to the tained ; and in giving them up as hopelessly greater patience. Eva was not decidedly vicious when they entered their teens. ill, though not entirely well. Mr. Dowlas Rebecca Jane was accordingly just now did not suffer at all ; not, that is to say, in passing out of the purgatorial stage into his own individual stomach. His wife prothe stage of final reprobation.
vided ample suffering for him out of that Mr. Dowlas grew in favour with Eva which fell to ber own share. Some twenty the more she saw and heard him; but her times he was screamed for down into the horror of her new aunt was increased in a cabin, to procure or administer some imgreater ratio still. The supper of which agined remedy. As many times, also, he they partook in the Liverpool hotel involved was screamed away back again, as one one dreadful revelation, and Mrs. Dowlas's whose presence was more sickening than red face, loud voice, and bravado manner the sea. proved all to be referable to one vulgar and About two in the afternoon (I think it. degrading cause.
was) they entered the Menai Straits, passed They were to start by the steamer in the nigh to that bridge, one of the wonders of forenoon of the morrow. The total change its own time, but now superseded by so of place and of associates had really a most many greater wonders ; and finally they consoling influence on Eva. It seemed to came to Bangor. And Eva saw mountains place the dreadful parting of the previous for the first time in her life. day at the distance of several weeks. Per- Mrs. Dowlas, very far from well even haps the disgust with which almost every now, crawled up from the cabin, and preword and act of her aunt inspired her was, pared to go on shore. Sea-sickness had at this time, of service to her.
played fantastic tricks with her florid comThe Saturday morning came. Mr. Dow- plexion. The bilious yellow and the fiery Jas went out before breakfast, and came red united to form what an artist would back with the account that the wind was have considered •“ a study.” She really fair, and that a calm and rapid passage appeared (it is a shocking simile, I am
aware, but it is the best which occurs to very beautiful, though not, perhaps, so beaume) — she really appeared to be throwing tiful as are sundry nooks which lie more up her very words.
southward, in Merionethshire. But we “ You murderous wretch !” she exclaimed, write of Wales with a little diffidence, and as her husband proffered his assistance to unaware whether our memory be true to her.
“You murderous wretch! To tell that country after an absence of eighteen me that we should go so smoothly and so years. But we cannot forget entirely. We well!”
forget not ascending Cader Idris, and watch“Well, I am sorry, my dear. But, really ing on the top, through the prolonged twiand truly, the wind got suddenly up just light of midsummer, to see the far-stretching after we started."
coast of Wales, and (if we might believe “Got up after we started, did it? My our guide's assurance) even the coast of goodness me, Rebecca Jane! But you do Ireland in the distant west lighted up deserve whipping, if ever a child did ! Now, with the morning sun. then, come along with you ! Don't make it Our friend and companion of that night worse, but come along directly !"
is now a Cambridge Don, and likewise a More dead than alive, and with houses member of the Alpine Club. Should he, and hills dancing before her eyes, as though by any unlikely chance, cast his eye on this chaos were come again, and the earth were page of ours, he will forgive this personal but another sea, Rebecca Jane attempted allusion, we are assured, and will cast his to walk from her seat on deck to the pier thoughts back to that night on which be,
ourselves, and the guide and eke a fourThe moral agency of her mamma's exam-footed personage of the name of " Nip ple, and the physical agency of her mam- awaited, on the cold mountain's top, the arma's knuckles, sustained her in her first ef- rival of the king of day. forts, and some assistance from her cousin Through the cloudy summer's evening, Eva accomplished the rest. And very and slowly, from the steepness of the roads, shortly they were all four of them inside an the chaise bore Eva and the three others hotel facing the beach.
towards the parsonage of Llynbwllyn. They Mr. Dowlas ventured to propose a short entered the village, and Eva's heart throbbed walk to his wife ; which proposal she ac- painfully fast at thinking she was going to knowledged by desiring him, if he did in- meet a mother whom she might in vain endeed wish to kill her, to take a knife and do deavour to love. They stopped before the
door. A middle-aged woman was ready to Mr. Dowlas then proposed that they greet them. Could she be Mrs. Roberts ? But should go out by themselves, and leave her a word or two from Mr. Dowlas informed to benefit herself by a little rest. To the his niece that the woman was only their proposition, returned in this amended form, servant Winifred. she told him that, if he were really brute Winifred Williams had served in the enough to leave his wife while she lay at the family many years. Her long service was point of death, it was a great deal better a perpetual puzzle to all who knew the he should go. Mr. Dowlas, with his two character and temper of Mrs. Dowlas. How other companions, did go.
But before he came it that Winifred, whose excellent qualwent he ordered dinner for the party. They ities entitled her to pick and choose out of rambled about for more than an hour, look- the most eligible places, was contented to ing in at the cathedral, and ascending an serve where so little was to be gained, and eminence near to the town. When they where even that little was spoilt by the decame back to the hotel they found Mrs. testable mistress of Llynbwllyn Rectory? Dowlas not only still alive, but very demon- The true answer should be given, in justice stratively alive, and calling out for bottled to Winifred. She remained there in selfporter. And then they dined, and towards denying consideration for her master and evening started off in an open chaise for his children. She was not withheld from Llynbwllyn.
seeking a better service by a blindness to That village, the destined scene of new the merits possessed by herself. A genuine and unimagined trials to our heroine, lay pity for her master's most unhappy life, and somewhere between Bangor and Carriarvon. a wish to lighten his load if she could, inBut for a few English ramblers, who haunt- duced her to tolerate the discomforts from ed it summer after summer, Llynbwllyn which many a less accomplished servant would have been the Welshiest place in all had turned in disgust away. But, alas ! the Principality
not to the best amongst us is it given to be It stood girt with sheltering mountains, Christians altogether. Mrs. Winifred was
it at once.
submissive enough to her mistress, who about the man whom she had once considmight turn her away in any moment of an- ered her husband. ger. But she was not nearly so patient “ He would do me justice if he could but with Mr. Dowlas and his sister-in-law, com- see you now," she kept repeating to Eva; passion towards whom (and towards the and Eva devoutly hoped that, whatever fate children) was her only motive for enduring had overtaken her unhappy father, he might such a mistress.
never come back to disturb her mother more It was this good woman, and I do not be- deeply still. Least of all could she desire lieve she had much idea of being better than to see her parents bound together by a still other people, - it was she who admitted closer bond than before. them into the house. Mrs. Dowlas was tired “Come, now, have you almost done talkand sleepy, and a little less ready than usual ing? for I want my tea.” with her tongue. Mrs. Roberts, as Wini- From whom this seasonable interruption fred informed them, was anxiously awaiting proceeded we need hardly specify. And, them in the parlour.
in truth, such talk as poor Mrs. Roberts Mr. Dowlas whispered to Eva as they kept up was little likely to serve any usewent in, “ I know your mother is very poor- ful purpose. So it was broken off on acly, from her not coming to meet us; pray count of tea, and they all retired early to excite her as little as you can.
bed. Eva had a very small but clean They entered the parlour - Mr. Dowlas apartment, looking out on the Welsh hills; first, Eva directly after him, while Mrs. and but that her thoughts would fly backDowlas and her daughter lingered in the wards to Leamington, she might have found passage.
something not unlike happiness in the reA pale, frightened-looking woman, dressed solve to bear with the infirmities of her like one recently widowed, got up from her mother, and with the more guilty infirmities chair to greet them. Eva came towards of her aunt, and to follow in the path of ber; she held out her arms, as if to receive duty wbich her new and strange circumher long-lost daughter. But before they stance smight indicate to her. touched Eva they were withdrawn with a The next day was Sunday. There was
morning service at Llynbwllyn Church Then recovering once more, Mrs. Roberts in Welsh; and (in consideration of several kissed Eva and cried over her.
English sojourners now abiding there) af“You are not like him," she said ; “ you ternoon service in English. are not at all like him ! - should be ever Eva attended both. There was a colcome back to do me justice, he may not be- lection in the afternoon, as was usual durlieve you are his child. But I thank you ing the visitors' season in every year, for for coming to me, notwithstanding; and, the expenses of the church. Eva could indeed, indeed, my poor dear child, what í not help thinking her uncle's appeal a did, cruel as it seemed, was done for the model of pulpit solicitation. Having ended. best — for the very best.”.
his sermon in the usual manner, he quietly “ There you go!” exclaimed her sister, said, “ We are accustomed to ask strangers who now had entered the room. There who attend this church to contribute towards you go! For ten years and more you've the salary of the clerk and of the sexton. been looking for the rascal to come back And I think when you learn that the clerk and marry you. Why, what if the wife he has only one pound a year, and the sexton had when you went away with him be really nothing whatever, you will be liberal in dead now?. Very likely he has twenty supplying the deficiency." There was one others by this time. Oh, what a fool you piece of gold in the plate that day. are, Susanna ! ”
Little or nothing which deserves recordEva tried to say a comforting word or ing took place for a week and more after two to her mother.
Eva's arrival at Llynbwllyn. It was a “ I know," she said, “ that you did the thankless task, the offering to comfort her best you could for me, and I have met with mother; for the more she urged on the poor the kindest friends, and had a very happy woman to forget the past, the more loudly childhood, so you have nothing to reproach and dolefully did she persist in deploring yourself with. Let us try and make one the folly which had blighted her life. When another as happy as we can.”
Mrs. Dowlas would angrily interpose with, But poor Mrs. Roberts, with the weak “ Oh, you are a fool, Susanna !” Eva, great waywardness which had made her the dupe and increasing as was her dislike of Mrs. of others through life, went on maundering Dowlas, could understand that her temper
low scared cry.
might have acquired some of its acidity little confidential monkey. Well, now, just from the constant contact with her sister's let me put it before you. Suppose you aggravating feebleness.
were a very pretty young lady or thought It required more patience in Eva to en- yourself a very pretty one, of twenty years dure her aunt's vicious taunts, when (as was of age, or no — we'll say of eighteen - eighfrequently happening) her mother was alone, teen years and four months, let us say and nursing one of her customary head- (and Mrs. Dowlas chuckled audibly at the aches. Eva had rapidly acquired the good- ingenious sarcasm of her hypothesis)," and will of her young cousins : there were four if some young gentleman were to ask you to of them altogether, including Rebecca Jane, marry him; what should you do then?” and as many more of them had died in I should
go and tell papa,” said Rebecca infancy, or in very early childhood. But Jane, after a moment or two of considerMrs. Dowlas was rather resentful than grate- aţion. ful for the kindness with which Eva had 66 * Go and tell mamma,' any decent girl sought and obtained the children's affection. would have said, I suppose. But it wouldn't The woman had an instinctive belief that make you turn up your nose at the relations she was an object of general contempt, and you'd got already, I should hope ? Never she was very jealous of the popularity her let anybody teach you to be proud, Rebec, newly
, found niece was winning in the ca Jane. "There are people in the world household, and would be likely to win wher- that have got vagabonds for their fathers, ever she became known.
and yet are proud with it all. Don't follow Her greatest satisfaction was to address every bad example you may come across. obliquely, through her eldest daughter, the I tell you what, child, giving you all this abuse she did not venture to cast more advice has made me quite exhausted. You directly at its object.
must get the bottle out of the cupboard." “ Rebecca Jane,” she would say, when a Thus Eva was now quite at home. long series of covert sarcasm had failed to On Tuesday, the 29th of July, Mrs. provoke a return from Eva — “ Rebecca Dowlas astonished Eva by coming down to Jane, I do hope to goodness that you'll never breakfast in a mood most marvellously amiget into the way of sitting sulky hour after cable. She suggested, of her own accord, hour, and never speaking when you're that while the weather was fine, and the spoken to by others. It's just the most un- days long, Eva should take an excursion or becoming habit you could have.” Or else two, and acquaint herself with some of it would be,
the beauties which are the most enduring “ Rebecca Jane, if any rich lady or gen- glories of Wales. Suppose Eva and her tleman should ever take a fancy to you, and mother were to spend that day and the give you a bringing up above your station, next in visiting Llandudno and Conway, don't you set yourself up on that account, and the other most northerly places of the and give yourself conceited airs, when you're Principality, making Bangor their headsent back to come and live with your own quarters for the night? Eva gladly secrelations again.”
onded the proposal. Mrs. Dowlas might Or occasionally the lady's humour would have some selfish and secondary motive for break forth in a manner which indicated thus proposing, but there was no visible some preparation beforehand. As, for in- reason for refusing to gratify her if she had, stance, in this manner,
Mr. Dowlas approved, but his wife seemed "Rebecca Jane, do you know what it more than usually anxious to keep him out looks like when young ladies sit still and of the conversation this morning. Mrs. don't talk ?”
Roberts was prevailed on to undertake the Rebecca Jane, timidly looking askance at expedition, and she and her daughter spent her cousin Eva, said she was sure she did an almost happy day among the mountains not know,
and along the shore. In the evening they “Then I'll tell you, Rebecca Jane. It put up at the hotel in Bangor, in which generally betokens when a young lady Eva had rested on the day of her arrival looks glumpy and what not that she has in Wales. had an attachment. My gracious heavenly It wanted still an hour or so to twilight, me, Rebecca Jane! If ever I find you out but the rain was coming on, and they looked in an attachment! But do you know what on their day's excursion as over. it is ?”
But the great event of that memorable 6. Yes, I think I do, mamma."
day was (for both of them) to come still. “I don't believe you do, however, you They had had their tea, and were seated