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times came with a little thump against the window, and where it was so dark that it was a comfort when night came, and the lamp could be lighted. So far as Carlingford was concerned, it would be almost as bad for Miss Marjoribanks as if she were her father's widow instead of his daughter. To keep up a position of social importance in a single woman's house, unless, as she had herself lightly said so short a time since, she were awfully rich, would be next to impossible. All that gave importance to the centre of society-the hospitable table, the open house-had come to an end with the Doctor. Things could no more be as they had once been, in that respect at least. She might stay in the house, and keep up to the furthest extent possible to her its old traditions; but even to the utmost limit to which Lucilla could think it right to go it could never be the same. This consciousness kept gleaming upon her as she sat in the dull daylight behind the closed blinds, with articles of mourning piled about everywhere, and the grey dimness getting into her very eyes, and her mind distressed by the consciousness that she ought to have been unable to think; and the sadness of the prospect altogether was enough to stir up a reaction, in spite of herself, in Miss Marjoribanks's mind.

And on the other side she would no doubt be very well off, and could go wherever she liked, and had no limit, except what was right and proper and becoming, to what she might please to do. She might go abroad if she liked, which perhaps is the first idea of the modern English mind when anything happens to it, and settle wherever she pleased, and arrange her mode of existence as seemed good in her own eyes. She would be an heiress in a moderate way, and aunt Jemima was by this time absolutely at her disposal, and could be taken anywhere; and at Lucilla's age it

was quite impossible to predict what might not happen to a woman in such a position. When these fairer possibilities gleamed into Lucilla's mind, it would be difficult to describe the anger and self-disgust with which she reproached herself for perhaps it was the first time that she had consciously failed in maintaining a state of mind becoming the occasion; and though nobody but herself knew of it, the pain of the accusation was acute and bitter. But how could Miss Marjoribanks help it?-the mind travels so much quicker than anything else, and goes so far, and makes its expeditions in such subtle, stealthy ways. She might begin by thinking of her dear papa, and yet before she could dry her eyes might be off in the midst of one of these bewildering speculations. For everything was tain now so far as he was concerned; and everything was so uncertain, and full of such unknown issues for herself. Thus the dark days before the funeral passed by

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-and everybody was very kind. Dr Marjoribanks was one of the props of the place, and all Carlingford bestirred itself to do him the final honours; and all her friends conspired how to save Lucilla from all possible trouble, and help her over the trial; and to see how much he was respected was the greatest of all possible comforts to her, as she said.

Thus it was that among the changes that everybody looked for, there occurred all at once this change which was entirely unexpected, and put everything else out of mind for the moment. For to tell the truth, Dr Marjoribanks was one of the men who, according to external appearance, need never have died. There was nothing about him that wanted to be set right, no sort of loss, or failure, or misunderstanding, so far as anybody could see. An existence in which he could have his friends to dinner every week, and a good

house, and good wine, and a very good table, and nothing particular to put him out of his way, seemed in fact the very ideal of the best life for the Doctor. There was nothing in him that seemed to demand anything better, and it was confusing to try to follow him into that which, no doubt, must be in all its fundamentals a very different kind of world. He was a just man and a good man in his way, and had been kind to many people in his lifetime-but still he did not seem to have that need of another rectifying completer existence which most men have. There seemed no reason why he should die-a man who was so well contented with this lower region in which many of us fare badly, and where so few of us are contented. This was a fact which exercised a very confusing influence, even when they themselves were not aware of it, on many people's minds. It was hard to think of him under any other circumstances, or identify him with angels and spirits-which feeling on the whole made the regret for him a more poignant sort of regret. And they buried him with the greatest signs of respect. People from twenty miles off sent their carriages, and all the George Street people shut their shops, and there was very little business done all day. Mr Cavendish and Mr Ashburton walked side by side at the funeral, which was an affecting sight to see; and if anything more could have been done to show their respect which was not done, the corporation of Carlingford would have been sorry for it. And the snow still lay deep in all the corners, though it had been trampled down all about the Doctor's house, where the lamp was not lighted now of nights; for what was the use of lighting the lamp, which was a kind of lighthouse in its way, and meant to point out succour and safety for the neighbours, when the physician himself was lying beyond all hope of succour or aid? And

all the Grange Lane people retired in a sympathetic, awe-stricken way, and decided, or at least the ladies did, to see Lucilla next day, if she was able to see them, and to find out whether she was going to make an effort, or what she meant to do. And Mrs Chiley was so much better that she was able to be up a little in the evening, though she scarcely could forgive herself, and still could not help thinking that it was she who had really been sent for, and that the Doctor had been taken in mistake. And as for Lucilla, she sat in her room and cried, and thought of her father's hand upon her shoulderthat last unusual caress which was more touching to think of than a world of words. He had been fond of her and proud of her, and at the last moment he had showed it. And by times she seemed to feel again that lingering touch, and cried as if her heart would break and yet, for all that, she could not keep her thoughts steady, nor prevent them from wandering to all kinds of profane out-of-door matters, and to considerations of the future, and estimates of her own position. It wounded her sadly to feel herself in such an inappropriate state of mind, but she could not help it; and then the want of natural light and air oppressed her sorely, and she longed for the evening, which felt a little more natural, and thought that at last she might have a long talk with aunt Jemima, who was a kind of refuge in her present loneliness, and gave her a means of escape at the same time from all this bustle and commotion of unbecoming thoughts.

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This was enough surely for any one to have to encounter at one time; but that very night another rumour began to murmur through Carlingford a rumour more bewildering, more incredible still, than that of the Doctor's death, which the town had been obliged to confirm and acknowledge, and put its seal to. When the thing was first

mentioned, everybody (who could find it in their heart to laugh) laughed loud in the face of the first narrator with mingled scepticism and indignation. They asked him what he meant by it, and ridiculed and scoffed at him to his face. "Lucilla will be the richest woman in Grange Lane," people said; "everybody in Carlingford knows that." But after this statement had been made, the town began to listen. It was obliged to listen, for other witnesses came in to confirm the story. It never might have been found out while the Doctor lived, for he had a great practice, and made a great deal of money; but now that he was dead, nothing could be hid. He was dead, and he had made an elaborate will, which was all as just and righteous

as a will could be; but after the will was read, it was found out that everything named in it had disappeared like a bubble. Instead of being the richest, Dr Marjoribanks was one of the poorest men in Carlingford, when he shut his door behind him on that snowy night. It was a revelation which took the town perfectly by storm, and startled everybody out of their senses. Lucilla's plans, which she thought so wicked, went out all of a sudden, in a certain dull amaze and dismay, to which no words could give any expression. Such was the second inconceivable reverse of fortune which happened to Miss Marjoribanks, more unexpected, more incomprehensible still than the other, in the very midst of her most important activities and hopes.

STUART MILL ON MIND AND MATTER.*

A NEW SONG.

AIR-" Roy's Wife of Aldivalloch."

Stuart Mill, on Mind and Matter,
All our old Beliefs would scatter:
Stuart Mill exerts his skill

To make an end of Mind and Matter.

The self-same tale I've surely heard,
Employed before, our faith to batter:
Has David Hume again appeared,

To run a-muck at Mind and Matter?

David Hume could Mind and Matter
Ruthlessly assault and batter:

Those who Hume would now exhume
Must mean to end both Mind and Matter.

"Matter, then, may be defined a Permanent Possibility of Sensation."— Mill's Examination of Hamilton, p. 198.

"The belief I entertain that my mind exists, when it is not feeling, nor thinking, nor conscious of its own existence, resolves itself into the belief of a Permanent Possibility of these states." "The Permanent Possibility of feeling, which forms my notion of Myself."-Ibid., pp. 205, 206.

Now Mind, now Matter, to destroy,
Was oft proposed, at least the latter:
But David was the daring boy

Who fairly floored both Mind and Matter.

David Hume, both Mind and Matter,
While he lived, would boldly batter:
Hume to Mill bequeathed by Will

His favourite feud with Mind and Matter.

Men think they see the Things that be;
But Truth is coy, we can't get at her;
For what we spy is all my eye,

And isn't really Mind or Matter.

Hume and Mill on Mind and Matter
Swear that others merely smatter:

Sense reveals that Something feels,
But tells no tale of Mind or Matter.

Against a stone you strike your toe;

You feel 'tis sore, it makes a clatter:
But what you feel is all you know
Of toe, or stone, or Mind, or Matter.

Mill and Hume of Mind and Matter
Wouldn't leave a rag or tatter:

What although we feel the blow?

That doesn't show there's Mind or Matter.

We meet and mix with other men ;

With women, too, who sweetly chatter:

But mayn't we here be duped again,

And take our thoughts for Mind and Matter?

Sights and sounds like Mind and Matter,
Fairy forms that seem to chatter,

May be gleams in Fancy's dreams
Of Men and Women, Mind and Matter.

Successive feelings on us seize

(As thick as falling hail-stones patter), The Chance of some return of these, Is all we mean by Mind or Matter.

Those who talk of Mind and Matter
Just a senseless jargon patter:
What are We, or you, or he?—
Dissolving views, not Mind or Matter.

We're but a train of visions vain,

Of thoughts that cheat, and hopes that flatter

This hour's our own, the past is flown;

The rest unknown, like Mind and Matter.

Then farewell to Mind and Matter:
To the winds at once we scatter

Time and Place, and Form and Space,
And You and Me, and Mind and Matter.

We banish hence Reid's Common Sense;
We laugh at Dugald Stewart's blatter;
Sir William, too, and Mansel's crew,
We've done for You, and Mind and Matter.

Speak no more of Mind and Matter:
Mill with mud may else bespatter
All your schools of silly fools,
That dare believe in Mind or Matter.

But had I skill, like Stuart Mill,

His own position I could shatter:
The weight of Mill, I count as Nil-
If Mill has neither Mind nor Matter.

Mill, when minus Mind and Matter,
Though he make a kind of clatter,

Must himself just mount the Shelf,
And there be laid with Mind and Matter.

I'd push my logic further still

(Though this may have the look of satire): I'd prove there's no such man as Mill,If Mill disproves both Mind and Matter.

If there's neither Mind nor Matter,
Mill's existence, too, we shatter:
If you still believe in Mill,

Believe as well in Mind and Matter.

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