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"ed, and strove in every possi|" demanded sleep, the fear of "ble way to prepare myself to go to God, that I might be "saved from his wrath. The (6 more I strove in this selfish 66 way the more anxious I was, " and no hope was given. Soon "I began to murmur and re76 pine, and accused God of the "greatest injustice, in requiring “ me to turn to him, and while "I was striving with all my "might, as I supposed, he ap

peared not to regard me. I "considered God as obligated to 66 save me because I had done 66 so much for him, and finding "no relief, I wished that he "might not be, and began real"ly to doubt the truths of his "holy word, and to disbelieve "his existence, for if there were

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"awaking in a miserable eterni"ty prevented the closing of แ my eyes, and nothing gave me ease. No voice of mirth, or sound whatever was heard, "but what reminded me of the "awful day when God shall "bring every work into judg"ment. All self-righteousness "failed me, and having no confi"dence in God, I was left in deep "despondency. After a while 66 a surprising tremor seized all "my limbs, and death appeared "to have taken hold upon me. "Eternity, the word eternity, "sounded louder than any hu"man voice I ever heard, and

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every moment of time appear"ed infinitely more valuable "than all the wealth of the "world. Not long after this an "unusual calmness pervaded

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my soul, which I thought little "of at first, except that I was "freed from my awful convic

a God I perfectly hated him. "I searched the scriptures dai"ly, hoping to find inconsisten"cies in them, to condemn the "Bible because it was against "me; and while I was diligent-"tions, and this sometimes griev❝ly pursuing my purpose, every "thing I read, and every ser"mon I heard, condemned me. "Christian conversation gave 66 me the most painful sensa❝tions. I tried to repent, but "I could not feel the least sor

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"ed me, fearing I had lost all "conviction. Soon after hear66 ing the feelings of a Christian "described, I took courage, and "thought I knew by experience " what they were. The char"acter of God, and the doc"trines of the Bible, which I "could not meditate upon be"fore, without hatred, especial"ly, those of election and free

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row for my innumerable sins. "By endeavoring to repent, I saw << my heart still remained imแ penitent. Altho' I knew that "I hated every thing serious," grace, now appear delightful, (6 yet I determined to habituate "and the only mean by which, 60 myself to the duties which "through grace, dead sinners "God required; to see if I could "not by that means be made to "love him, and I continued in "this state some months. The "fear of having committed the "unpardonable sin, now began "to arise in my mind, and I "could find no rest day nor "night. When my weary limbs

can be made the living sons of "God. My heart feels it sin"fulness. To confess my sins "to God gives me that peace, "which before I knew nothing "of. To sorrow for it, affords "that joy which my tongue can"not express. Were I sensi"ble that at death my hope

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man shall see the Lordwe "must be born again." It im"mediately occured to my mind

"would perish, yet it seemeth "to me now that I could not "willingly quit the service of "God, nor the company of " that I was one of that descrip"Christians; but my unfaith-❝tion. "fulness often makes me fear

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66 my sincerity, and should I at religion but was conscious I "last be raised to glory, all the" had never felt it. This lay 66 praise will be to God for the "with great weight upon my "exhibition of his sovereign" mind. As I was walking a "grace." "few evenings after this anxiety

Another person, nearly forty" began, the first thing I recolyears of age, at a private lec-"lect, after I left the house, ture, attended April 22d, 1801," where I had been, I was standwas so wrought upon by the "ing still, more than half a mile word being set home upon his "distant from the place I had heart, that he instantly became "left, reasoning with myself, in so overcome with a sense of his "this manner, What, must danger, that he was scarcely able" man be born again? Is this a to stand, and looked, as he saith," work of the Holy Spirit? Is "Round about for something to" God sovereign having mercy stay myself with. Fearing on whom he will have mercy ? "lest some one should ask, what" "aileth thee? I endeavored to "bear up under the pressure, as "much as possible, and so con"cealed the matter. This, how-" them, for all that God hath 66 ever, put me upon enquiring taught is good and nothing to "what I should do to be saved," be refused? Surely we ought. "for previously I had little or "Oh, what shall I do!

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no anxiety about my future "state. Soon after this I set up "family prayer, which I had

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Are not these doctrines in the "bible? Yes I know they are "for I have often read them. "Why then should we not hear

I will "not open my mouth against "them. Thus I was weary and

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heavy laden, and continued un" til Thanksgiving day, when I

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never attempted before. In "the beginning it was hard, but began more sensibly to fear "I felt it my duty and was una"that I should be of all men the "ble to rest without it. Having "most miserable. In the evemany serious thoughts, and "ning I went again to one of my "loving, as I imagined, the ser- neighbors in order to divert "vice of God, I went forward" my awakened mind, but in "and made a public profession "vain. The chearly conversa"of religion, and believed all" of my neighbor increased my was well until the 22d of No- sorrow. I wondered how "vember following, when upon any could laugh or smile. "the Lord's day it was observed "When I returned and attempt"in the sermon, that persons "ed to commend my house in "might be strict in all the out- prayer to God, I was more dis"ward forms and duties of reli- "tressed than ever, for I began "gion and still be in the gall of" to feel my spiritual blindness, "bitterness and bonds of iniqui- " especially in prayer, for my ty, "For without holiness no "form was gone, and I could

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"not recall it. I experienced | forded relief, and afterwards fill"the same again the next "morning. When I took my "Bible in my hands, I had such 66 a tremor that I could not read "and could scarcely speak, so "that I went out, ashamed and "confounded. I endeavored to

ed that soul with peculiar joy-
The other was an instance of
great temptation in secret pray-
er; while thus distressed with
temptations. "It came into
❝ my
mind says he that I
"needed divine assistance, im-

pursue my secular business,"mediately, my whole heart and "soul appeared to ascend to "Heaven with this fervent pe"tition, That God would con"descend to meet me in the "closet and graciously assist me "in conquering the tempter, "that I might no more be led "captive by him at his will. I "do not remember all the words "I used, but I began my peti❝tion thus, Holy, holy, holy "Lord God Almighty. The an"swer I received was not by an "audible voice, but the fact that "God had heard and would

"but it was with great indiffer-
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(6 anguish till by sovereign grace
"it was brought home to God.
"About the middle of the day
66 on Friday after, I had such
"manifestations of God's love,
"and such admiring thoughts of
"his holy character, and of all
"the precepts of the gospel
"which my soul so much de-
"tested before, that I could no
"longer hold my peace. Iim-
"mediately left all, repaired to
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"my dear companion to help
"me praise the Lord. Praise
"the Lord, Oh, sing praises to
C6 our God, was the incessant
"language of my soul thro' the
"day. Now I wanted all around
66 me to taste the loving kind-
ness of
our God and to bless
"his holy name.
Since that
"time I have had a variety of
"feelings and hours of darkness,
"but I cannot give up my hope
" in Christ."

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There are two other persons of different ages, one is in early life, who have been remarkably tempted and buffeted of Satan, as they fully believed. One of them seemed to be forced, as it were, by an irresistible power to take life, so that a number of days the person feared to take a knife in his hand, or any other sharp tool, for it seemed as tho' it must necessarily be put to the throat, even without its being desired; but God in due time af

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grant my request, was as evi"dent as if it had been by a voice. "This was a precious season, " and I felt astonished at my

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stupidity, that I had never be"fore tho❜t of looking to God for "assistance. When it was morn"ing I took my Bible and re"tired to my closet, and began

my devotions, asking God to "meet with me-and such sen"sible and sweet communion "with God I never thought of "enjoying before. I proceeded "renewedly to enter into covenant "with my maker, which as it

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appears to me I did with all CC my heart, dedicating myself to "his service, both soul and body, "for time and eternity. I could "now truly say, Lord, it is good "for me to be here. One hour

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"felt as if I was actually encircled been no instance of any one pro"in the arms of my dear Re-fessing Godliness, that has turn"deemer. No tongue can de-ed back, or dishonored his pro"scribe the bliss I felt. I con- fession. The tares we know "ceived it to be what Peter ex- will grow among the wheat, but 66 presseth in this manner- we have not yet discovered them. "Whom having not seen ye love Since the date of the last letter, "in whom tho' now ye see him five have been duly examined not, yet believing ye rejoice with and propounded for admission "joy unspeakable and full of glory. unto the Church; which, to"Again, these words made a gether with several more, who deep impression upon my have probably as good a hope as "mind, They that know thy any we have named, but parti66 name will put their trust in cular circumstances have kept "thee." them out of the Church, will make the number of hopeful converts, in the late awakening, to surpass 100; and we hope the glorious work has not yet ended, for there have been two or three instances of awakenings since the communication of our last; but God only knoweth what is in the womb of futurity; and to us it belongeth to bow with reverence before him, giving thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.

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"For eight or ten days, suc66 cessively, I had an hour or two "each morning, before light, of enjoying the sweetest com"munion with my Saviour, that "it is possible for finite crea"tures to enjoy, in this imper"fect state. The spirit did not "leave me until it had, seem"ingly, led my mind to a com66 prehensive view of the whole "character of God, and of all "his precepts. Lastly, I had a "most realising view of the odi66 ous nature of sin, and the won"derful patience of God, in bear"ing so long with impenitent "sinners. From that time my 66 greatest anxiety has been to

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cease from sin, and no temp"tation has overtaken me but "such as is common to men."

The persons referred to in this narrative, have all of them been hopefully in the school of Christ more than three years, and some of them much longer; which must have been some trial of their faith, and afford a comfortable hope that the things which they have experienced, are not the result of a heated imagination, nor the wild effusions of a disordered brain, but the genuine effects of God's holy spirit. There has, as yet,

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the transactions of the Society, and to perform all the usual duties of said office.

V. The duty of the Treasurer shall be, to receive, and be accountable for, all the property of the Society, in whatever way it may arise; to answer the orders of the Trustees; and to exhibit a fair account of all his proceedings to the Society, annually, and oftener to the Trustees, if required.

the way of salvation by Christ; from a sense of our solemn and voluntary obligations to promote the interest of the Redeemer's kingdom, in all possible, proper ways; and from the pious example of many of our Christian brethren, both in Europe and American: wE, a number of ministers and servants of Christ, convened in Hopkinton, on Wednesday, September 2d, 1801, for the purpose of consulting upon the most suitable means for promoting a cause so important and desirable, have considered it an indispensible duty to form into a SOCIETY, in order to unite our exertions for spreading abroad the glad tidings of salvation among the Heathen, and others, in our frontier and infant settle-ciety, between their annual meetments, who are destitute of the precious privileges which we enjoy.

To inform you of the motive and design of our Society, we take the liberty to lay before you its CONSTITUTION, which is as follows:

Art. I. The Society shall be known by the name of the NewHampshire Missionary Society; the sole object of which, is, the propagation of the gospel among those who are destitute of its precious privileges.

II. The Officers of the Society shall consist of a President, Secretary, a Treasurer, and six Trustees, to be chosen annually, by ballot.

III. The duty of the President shall be, to regulate the meetings of the Society; to act, ex officio, as one of the Trustees and their Moderator, any four of whom shall constitute a quo

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IV. The duty of the Secretary shall be, to keep records of

VI. The duty of the Trustees shall be, to examine candidates for Missions; to employ and direct Missionaries; furnish them with proper credentials ; recall, or dismiss them, if necessary; and, in a word, to superintend the affairs of the So

ings, when, it will be expected, that they make report of their proceedings, and also of the services and success of their Missionaries.

VII. That the Society may reap the benefit of the united exertions of their Board of Trustees, it will be expected of the latter that they hold, statedly, semi-annual meetings; and that they meet oftener, if necessary.

VIII. The Society shall meet, annually, on the Tuesday preceding the General Election of the State, at ten o'clock, A. M. at the place appointed for the General Election, unless, for special reasons, they shall agree at one meeting to have their next holden at a different time and place; on which day of their meeting, a Sermon shall be delivered at four o'clock, P. M.-And at each meeting, the preacher, a first and second, shall be chosen for the next.

IX. All questions before the

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