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Oh I would die with him!" And then she ran off into Do let me know all; I must go Charles told her to be calm and com

some wild rhapsodies.

to him," she said.

posed, for then she would be removed home the sooner, where she might yet see Mr. Bredwell; meanwhile he would endeavour to send her information of Mr. Bredwell's advancing recovery. He then took leave. "You see," said the Governess, "how your touching upon an interesting topic roused the dormant wildness of her mind; she is not yet sufficiently restored to quit the asylum."

Charles sat down to write to Eugenia respecting his visit to Mrs. Wenlow; and the next post but one brought him the following interesting and eloquent letter from Eugenia wond ever noy”

Saturday May 9th.

"The impressions, my dear friend, which your letter yesterday removed from my mind rendered it doubly welcome; and you would not have omitted writing on any account had you conceived the anxious expectation and proportionate disappointment which on Monday and Tuesday mornings we experienced when no intelligence from you arrived. I could not believe you had forgotten the offer of kindness yourself proposed. Though Mr. Scott's truly kind and satisfactory letter did supersede the obligation,' and ease my dear mother's mind, yet I was equally at a loss to account for the silence of one whose mind certainly is formed both by nature and grace to sympathize.

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“But still I found that in my adored Redeemer I possessed such an inexhaustible treasure-such a never-failing refuge, that I felt I possessed a peace which the world or any object therein can neither give nor take away. Yet this frame of mind did not lessen the pleasure I received from your interesting communication. A christian will regard every friend and every act of friendship as the gift

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of his first but eternal Friend, the fountain of all creature blessings. Thus he will be meeting with causes for gratitude and praise. When the world frowns, he will look at the changeless benignity of a pitying Father; and when it shall smile, we will regard it as a faint emblem-a fading reflection of his smile; but, O never may it smile so sweetly as to captivate our senses and draw away our ardent desires for the light of his countenance, in whose presence there is fulness of joy, and at whose right hand there are pleasures for evermore.' While you have been engaged in the offices of duty and friendship, my presence and my thoughts have been daily at the house of mourning, -the residence of our dear and valued pastor, whose sufferings and increasing weakness, with the affection of Mrs. B. and the children, have powerfully attracted every tender and sympathetic feeling. He has been getting worse ever since the morning we were there; and every vestige of hope which, from some circumstances we ventured to indulge, is now completely done away; he is rapidly hastening to the grave; and, while his body endures extreme weakness, alternately vomitting blood and bile, with other distressing symptoms, his redeemed soul is as a calm and serene spec tator of the falling tabernacle-the same full, and firm, and unshaken, and undaunted assurance of faith, which we have so often heard him exhort us to press forward to, he now proves to all around sufficient for the trying hour; he de clares himself founded on a rock which cannot be moved, and is a debtor to mercy alone. The disorder being on the lungs, it is necessary that every friend should be excluded, and the command laid on him not to talk; but when he speaks, it is the language of firm hope and entire resignation.

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"Thus in the period of life when health and usefulness might be expected, to leave the world, his children, and his wife, with a firm trust that God will provide for them,

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is a work that God alone can perform; and he acknowledges that it is grace alone that so cheers his dying prospects. What a solemn yet encouraging sermon is his now to us; now he does preach experimentally; and may we experience in the hour of death that it is not preached in vain.

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For us he languishes for us he dies!'

"Last night I spent at the parsonage, endeavouring to support poor Mrs. B. To-night I have again promised to be with her, when I suppose I shall have full cause for all the powers of my mind; for I expect every night will terminate the struggle. You, who know the weakness of my spirits, will be surprised to hear that I am, while there, perfectly composed and collected-neither hurried with fear, nor oppressed with grief. The idea of administering consolation swallows up every other; and my heavenly Father is with me. I think he is employing me now-and to be employed by him-how great a blessing. You must pray for me when you receive this. If it arrives before you go to see my poor aunt, pray give my mother's love to her, and say she will come to see her soon, and hopes she will take exercise, and get some work. I have no doubt that her apparent rationality was an effort of art. I have seen such instances before in her. That she is calm now is very consolatory, and gives us room to hope for farther amendment. Mr. Scott gave us some information with regard to the medical plans. Such kind attention to strangers proves that he deserves the appellation of Good Mr. Scott.'

"I wished for you on Thursday to see our dear friend, the Rev. Mr. Halbert, the vicar of Ledlow, to tell him how much we were pleased with his exhortation at Mr. Gullam's. I had not spirits to do it, and I make a very poor figure in paying even the tribute of sincere applause to the

party admired or applauded. I can write with pleasure in that strain, and love panegyric to my heart; but in speaking of the same, I am the most awkward creature in the world. He enquired how you did, and what took you to town for so long a time. I told him ; and he said no more. I find that you have still, in the very heart of the busy scenes, time for reading, and solitary hours too; such, indeed, are needful for the soul's health without retirement and contemplation it is impossible that vital religion can exist for the world, and all that is therein is perpetually damping the flame; this is why so few immersed in a great deal of business, walk closely with God. I am num 197 21009 10 6w am very glad that you were not ashamed of the reproach of the not feite gospel-bore your testimony to it, and fought the battle of reason for your Lord and Master in a family whose enmity to it has been strongly marked. I have had many such skirmishes; but my zeal has flagged when I fight on any other than scriptural ground. I droop under the convic tion that our arguments fall on adamantine hearts, thatThey y that are convinc'd against their will, Are of the same opinion still.'

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But this is not right; we ought at all times to contend for the truth; and though we shall most assuredly obtain the honourable appellation of fools,' if not expressed in words, implied in a certain degree of contempt, yet like Mr. Cadogan, we must not only be contented to be the world's fool for the sake of Christ, but expect it, and plan upon it; value it, and rejoice under it. What is the world to the ch the christian, eispdy of OR

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CHARLES bob ddiw viscolo sw was, of course, very much gratified with this kind and sensible epistle from his valued friend; and read part of it to Mr. Whiteden, who observed, "Ah! Eugenia is one of the purest and most e excellent ladies that ever I knew. She kindly spent a month with us some time since and helped me to arrange my library; during which period I had many occasions to observe her excellent character and superior mind. But Charles it is time that we prepare to go to Counsellor Hadlow's to dinner, where, as we go thither daily, I should be sorry to be behind time." They arrived in time; and there they met, as usual, his young and blooming lady, Mrs. Whiteden's sister, and six sons. The eldest, Charles was particularly delighted with for his urbanity and good sense. He little thought at that M time that he would arrive at the highest honours of the state, when he would render him essential service. The party, after dinner, proposed taking a coach for an excur sion to Highgate to take a cup of coffee, and, from the window of the Castle hotel, they contemplated the beau tiful sky, tinged with all the colours of the rainbow. Mr Flavel, the elder, was, as usual, full of lively spirits; and remarking the glory of the setting sun, he exclaimed, in odi diwe

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