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HOPE. Yes, over, and 'Over, and over.
CHR. And did the Father reveal the Son to you?
HOPE. Not at first, nor second, nor third, nor fourth, nor fifth, no nor at the sixth time neither.
CHR. What did you do then?
HOPE. What! why Icould not tell what to do.
CHR. Had you not thoughts of leaving off praying?
HOPE. Yes, and a hundred times twice told.
CHR. And what was the reason you did not?
HOPE. I believed that that was true which hath been told me, to wit, that without the righteousness of this CHRIST, allthe world could notsave me: and therefore, thought I with myself, if I leave off I die, and I can but die at the throne of grace. And withal this came into my mind, “ If it tarry, wait for it, “ because it will surely come, and will not tarry‘.” SO I continued, until the Father showed me his Son.
CHR. And how was he revealed unto you?
HOPE. I did not see him with my bodily eyes, bu with the eyes of my understanding‘, and thus it was :—one day I was very sad, I think sadderthan at any one time of my life; and this sadness was through a fresh sight of the greatness and vileness of my sins. And as I was then looking for nothing but hell, and the ever. lasting damnation of my soul, suddenly, as I thought, I saw the Lord, JEsus look down from heaven upon me, and saying, “ Believe on the Lord JEsvs CHRIST, “ and thou shalt be saved".”
But I replied, ‘ Lord, I am a great, a very great
sinner: and he answered, “ My grace is sufficient “ for thee.” Then I said, ‘ But, Lord, what is ‘ believing?’ And then I saw from that saying, “ He “ that cometh to me shall never hunger, and he that “ believeth on me shall never thirst‘,” that believing and coming was all one; and that he that came, that is, ran out in his heart and affection after salvation by CHRIST, he indeed believed in Cumsr. Then the water stood in mine eyes, and I asked further, ‘ But, ‘ Lord, may such a great sinner, as Iam, be indeed ‘ accepted of thee, and be saved by thee?’ And I ' heard him say, “ And him that cometh to me, Iwill “ in no wise cast out‘.” ThenI said, ‘ But how, ‘ Lord, must I consider of thee in my coming to ‘ thee, that my faith may be placed aright upon thee?’ Then he said, “ CHRIST came into the world to “ save sinnersz” “ he is the end of the law of “ righteousness to every one that believes :" “ he " died for our sins, and rose again for our justifica“ tion:” “ he loved us, and washed us from our “ sins in his own blood :” “ he is Mediator betwixt “ GOD and us :" “ he everwliveth to make intercession “ for us’.” From all which I gathered that Imust look for righteousness in his person, and for satisfaction for my sins by his blood; that which he did in Obedience to his Father’s law, and in submitting to the penalty thereof, was not for himself, but for him'that will accept it for his salvation, and be thankful. And now was my heart full Of joy, mine eyes full Of tears, and mine affections running over
TO THE INCREASE or ms HUMILITY AND LOVE. 177 with love to the name, people, and ways of Jesus CHRIST.
CHR. This was a revelation of Crmrsr to your soul indeed: but tell me particularly what effect this had upon your spirit.
HOPE. It made me see that all the world, notwithstanding all the righteousness thereof, is in a state of condemnation: it made me see that 601) the Father, though he be just, can justly justify the coming sinner: it made me greatly ashamed of the vileness of my former life, and confounded me vwith the sense of mine own ignorance; for there never came thought into my heart, before now, that showed me so the beauty of Jasus CHRIST: it made me love a holy life, and long to do something for the honour and glory of the Lord Jnsvs; yea, Ithought that, had I now thousand gallons of blood in my body, I could spill it all for the sake of the Lord JESUS.
I saw then in my dream, that HOPEFUL.-lOOk€(l back and saw IGNORANCE, whom they had left behind, coming after: Look, said he to CHRISTIAN, how far yonder youngster loitereth behind.
CHR. Ay, ay, I see him: he careth not for our company.
Hon-z. ButI trow it would not have hurt him, had he kept pace with us hitherto. _
CHR. That is true; but I'll-warrant you he thinketh otherwise.
Hora. That I think he doth: but, however, let us tarry for him. So they did.
Then CHRISTIAN said to him, Come away, man, why do you stay so behind?
IGNOR. I take my pleasure in walking alone; even more a great deal than in company; unless Ilike it better.
Then said Cmusrrmr to HOPEFUL, (but softly) Did I not tell you he cared not for our company? But, however, said he, come up, and let us talk away the time in this solitary place. Then, directing his speech to IGNORANCE, he said, Come, how do you? how stands it between GOD and your soul now?
IGNOR. Ihope well, for I am always full Of good motions, that come into my mind to comfort me as I walk.
' Can. What good motions? pray tell us.
IGNOR. Why, I think of GOD and heaven.
CHR. So do the devils and damned souls.
IGNOR. But I think of them and desire them.
Cruz. So do many that are never like to come there. “ The soul of the sluggard desires, and hath “ nothing'.” '
IGNOR. But I think of them, and leave all for them.
CHR. ThatI doubt: for leaving of all is an hard matter; yea, a harder matter than many are aware of. But why, or by what, art thou persuaded that thou hast left all for GOD and heaven?
Ioitoa. My heart tells me so.
CHR. The wise man says, “ He that trusts his “ own heart is a fool'.”
CONCERNING HIS HOPE, HEART, AND THOUGHTS. 17’
IGNOR. This is spoken of an evil heart, but mine is a good one.
Can. But how dost thou prove that?
Icuon. It comforts me in hopes of heaven.
CHR. That may be through its deceitfulness; for a man’s heart may minister comfort to him in the hopes of that thing for which he yet has no ground to hope.
IGNOR. But my heart and life agree together ; and therefore my hope is well grounded.
Can. Who told thee that thy heart and life agree together?
IGNOR. My heart tells me.
CHR. ‘ Ask my fellow I be a t/ziq’fi’ Thy heart I tells thee so! except the word of GOD beareth witness in this matter, other testimony is of no value.
IGNOR. But is it not a good heart that has good thoughts? and is not that a good life that is according to GOD’s commandments?
CHR. Yes, that is a good heart that hath good thoughts, and that is a good life that is according to Gon’s commandments; but it is one thing indeed to fia'ue these, and another thing only to think so.
IGNOR. Pray, what count you good thoughts, and a life according to Gon’s commandments?
CHR. There are good thoughts of divers kinds ; -some respecting ourselves, some—GOD, some— CHRIST, and some-*other things.
IGNOR. What be good thoughts respecting our-, selves? ' '
CHR. Such as agree with the word of GOD.