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the most imtninent danger of drowning: and being a soldier in the parliament’s army at the siege of Leicester, A.D.
i 1645, he was drawn out to stand centinel; but one of his comrades, having by his own desire taken his place, was shot through the head on his post; and thus BU NYAN was reserved by the all-disposing hand of G0 D for better purposes. He seems however, to have made progressive advances in wickedness, and to have become the ring-leader of youth in every kind of profaneness and excess.
His career of vice received a considerable check, in consequenCe of his marriage, with the daughter of a person who had been very religious in his way, and remarkably bold in reproving vice, but who was then dead. His wife’s discourse to him concerning her father’s piety excited him to go regularly to church: and as she brought hint, for her whole portion, The Practice zf szty, and The plain Man’s Pat/tway to Heaven, he employed himself frequently in reading these books. » .
The events recorded of our author are so destitute of dates, or regard to the order in which they happened that no clear arrangement can now be made of them: but it is probable, that this new attention to religion, though ineffectual to the reformation of his conduct, rendered him more susceptible of convictions; and his vigorous imagination, at that time wholly unrestrained by knowledge or dis. cretion, laid him open to, a variety of impressions, sleeping and waking, which he verily supposed to arise from
.words spoken to him, or objects Presented before his bodily senses; and he never after was able to break the association of ideas thus formed in his mind. Accordingly he says, that one day when he was engaged in diversion with his companions, “ A voice did suddenly dart from heaven “ into my soul, which said, Wilt t/tbu leave (by sin; and g0 “ to lzcaven, or have thy sins and go to lull?” The consciousness of his wicked course of life, accompanied with the recollection of the truths he had read, suddenly meeting
as it were, in his mind, thus produced a violent alarm, and made such an impression on his imagination, that he seemed to have heard these words, and to have seen CHRIST frowning and menacing him. But we must not suppose, that there was any miracle wrought; nor could there be any occasion for anew res/elation to suggest or enforce so scriptural a warning. This may serve as a specimen of those impressions, which constitute a large part of his religious experience; but which need not be particularized in this place.
He was next tempted to conclude that it was then too late to repent or seek salvation; and, as he ignorantly listened to the suggestion, he indulged his ' corrupt inclinations without restraint, imagining that this was the only way in which he could possibly have the least expectation of pleasure.
\Vhile he was proceeding in this wretched course, a woman of very bad character reproved him with great severity for profane swearing; declaring in the strongest expressions, that he exceeded in it all men she had ever heard. This made him greatly ashamed, when he reflected that he was too vile even for such a bad woman to endure: so that from that time he began to break off that odious custom. —His guilty and terrified mind was also prepared to admit the most alarming impressions during his sleep: and he had such a dream about the day of judgement and its awful circum_ stances and consequences, as powerfully influenced his conduct. There was, indeed, nothing extraordinary in this; for such dreams are not uncommon to men under deep convictions: yet the Lord was doubtless, by all these means secretly influencing his heart, and warning him to flee from the wrath to come.
He was, however, reluctant to part with his irreligious associates and vain pleasures; till the conversation of a poor man, who came in his way, induced him to read the Bible, especially the preceptive and historical parts of it: and this put him upon an entire reformation of his conduct; insomuch that his neighbours were greatly astonished at the change,
which they had witnessed. In this manner he went on for about a year; at some times satisfied with himself, and at others distressed with fears and consciousness of guilt.-He seems ever after to have considered all the convictions and desires which he at this time experienced, as wholly originating from natural principles; but in this perhaps some persons will venture to dissent fromhim. A self-righteousness accompanied with self-complacency, and furnishing incentives to pride, is indeed a full proof of unregeneracy. But conscientiousness connected with disquietudes, humiliation for sin, and a disposition to wait for divine teaching,
darkened with ignorance, error, and prejudice. And he, that hath given life will give it more abundantly; for “ the " path of thejust is as the shining light, that shineth more “ and more unto the perfect day.”
While BUN YAN was in this state of mind he went, in the course of his trade as a tinker, to BEDFORD; where he overheard some women discourse about regeneration: and though he could not understand their meaning, he was greatly 'affected by observing the earnestness, chearfulness,
and humility of their behaviour; and was also convinced I
that his views 'of religion were at that time very defective.— Being thus led to frequent their company, he was brought as it were into a new world. Such an entire change took place in his sentiments, dispositions, and affections; and his mind was so deeply engaged in contemplating the great concerns of eternity, and the things pertaining to the kingdom of Goo, that he found it very difficult to employ his thoughts on any secular affairs.
But this extraordinary flow of affections, not being attended by a proportionable measure of doctrinal information, laid him open to various attemps of SATAN and his emissaries. -The RANTERS, aset ofthe vilest antinomians that 'alm0st ever existed, first assailed him, by one of their party, who had formerly been Mr.BUNYAN’s companion in vice: but
.he over-acted his part; and, proceeding even to deny the being of a G0 D, probably furnished the character of ATHEIST in the ‘ Pilgrim's Progress.’-\/Vhile Mr.BU NYAN was engaged in reading the books of the RANTERS, not being able to form his judgement about them, he was led to offer up the following prayer :- ‘ O Lord, I am a fool, and not ‘ able to know the truth from error: Lord, leave me not to ‘ my own blindness, either to approve or condemn this ‘ doctrine. If it be of Goo, let me not despise it; if it be ' of the Devil, let me not embrace it. Lord I lay my soul ‘ in this matter only at thy foot; let me not be deceived, I ‘ humbly beseech thee.’ This most suitable request the Lord graciously answered; he soon saw through the delusions of the RANTERS; and probably referred to them, under the character of SELF-\VILL, in the second part 0fthis work. The Epistles of ST. PAUL, which he now read with great attention, but without any guide or instructor, gave occasion to his being assaulted by many sore temptations. He found the apostle continually speaking offiu't/z; and he could find no way by which he might understand the meaning of that word ' or discover whether he was a believer or not: so that, mistaking the words of CHRIST“, he was tempted, to seek a solution of his difficulty by trying to work a miracle ; he thought however it would be right to pray, before he made the attempt, and this induced him to desist, though his difficulties still remained—He was delivered from great perplexities about the doctrine of election, by reflecting that none “ ever “ trusted in GOD and was confounded :"and thereforeit would be best for him to trust in Gon,and leave election,asa“secret “ thing,” with the Lord, to whom it belonged. ‘And the 'general invitations of the gospel, and the assurance that “ yet “ there is room," helped him to repel the temptation to conclude, that the day of grace was past. g This brief account of his temptations and escapes may teach others the best way of resisting similar suggestions: and it
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shows us, that numbers are durably harassed by such perplexities, for want of doctrinal knowledge and faithful instructors and counsellors—He was, however, afterwards enabled by means of these inward trials to caution others to better effect, and more tenderly to sympathize with the tempted.
After some time Mr. BUNYAN became acquainted with Nlr. G1 F F OR D,an Anti-posdo-baptist minister at Br. D FOR 1), whose conversation was very useful to him: yet he was in some respects more discouraged than ever, by fuller discoveries of those evils in his heart, which he had not before noticed; and by doubts concerning the truth of the scriptures, which his entire ignorance of the evidences by which they are authenticated, rendered durably perplexing to him. He was, however, at length relieved by a sermon he heard on the love of CHRIST; though the grounds, on which he derived satisfaction and encouragement from it, are not very accurately stated.--Soon after this he was admitted, by adult baptifm, a member of Mr. Gtrrortn‘s church, A. D. 1655, being then 27 years of age,-and after a little time, was earnestly desired by the congregation to expound or preach, ina manner which is customary among the Dissenters, as a preparation to the ministry. For a while he resisted their importunity, under a de'ep sense of his incompetency; but at length he was prevailed upon to speak in a small company, which he did greatly to their satisfaction and edification. Having been thus proved for a considerable time, he was at length called forth, and set apart by fasting and prayer to the ministerial office, which he executed with faithfulness and fuccess during a long course of years; though frequently with the greatest trepidation and inward disquietude.
Ashe was baptized 1655, and imprisoned 1660, he could not have been long engaged in the work, previous to that event: and it does not appear whether he obtained a stated employment as a minister; or whether he only preached occasionally, and continued to work at his trade; as many Dissenters very laudany do, when called to minister among poor